Holding On...

I definitely don't want September to come and go without blogging!  Now that I have my life under control, have started school, and have free time at night, it's the perfect time to pick up blogging again!  I'm sure as the school year goes on, I'm going to have LOTS of funny stories to share. :)  Speaking of school, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE my job!  I'm so grateful for the opportunity I have to be a teacher this year.  My students truly are wonderful!  The first week went sooooo much better than I expected it to.  I was expecting something to go horribly wrong... but nothing did.  If anything, I'm excited for the school year, and I'm really hoping I can make a difference in at least one students life.

Lately, outside of school, I've been feeling like I live a double life.  I feel like I am a peppy, fun person at school, but when I come home, I feel worthless and like I matter to no one...  There have been a lot of changes over the summer with friends and family, and up til now, I've never felt so alone.  By the end of the year, all of my close friends will be married, or engaged... I'm so happy for them, but also wish that I was in a similar situation.  I don't really ever have plans anymore- everyone else is busy living their lives.  So, I sit home, pinning on pinterest, while other's are out dating and having fun.  Maybe things will change for me sometime, but for now, I'm having a hard time.  It's okay to feel like this every once in a while, right?  It's one of those things that I don't really know how to overcome.  I would LOVE to have someone to talk to/do something with.  But where do I find someone like that?  I don't know.

For the next few months, the only thing I can count on to truly bring me happiness is football.  There is nothing I love more than watching the Cougars play.  Being in the stadium is definitely one of my most favorite places to be.  I don't know why, and really it shouldn't matter.  It's the one thing in my life that truly makes me happy, and hey, it gives me something to do.  Hooray for having something to look forward to each week for the next few months!

I've had several things on my mind for the past few weeks, and there is one that is driving me up the wall.  I'm not the kind of person who is going to just text anyone for the fun of it.  If I text someone, I usually have a question, have something to tell them, or just generally want them to know that I am thinking about them.  Going along this texting theme, whenever I get a text, I make sure to respond because I absolutely HATE when someone doesn't respond.  And, this has been happening a lot to me lately it seems like.  Now sure, I understand people get busy, and things come up, but when someone doesn't respond, or responds with one word, I get annoyed.  (Obviously this has happened to me tonight, which is why I'm so annoyed and talking about it.)  I'm in need of a venting session, and figured this was the best place to do it.  Tomorrow I'll be fine, but for tonight, I'm annoyed.

Some people look at me and ask how i'm so happy.  Truth is, I'm not.  But I'm trying my best each and every day to do what I should.  I'm trying to live the best that I can in hopes that one day something wonderful happens.  I'm hoping to get out of this deep, dark slump I've been in for quite some time.  And I know it's going to take time.  Once, when I was given a blessing by my dad, he told me "this too shall pass." And that's what gets me through the day.  These bad/hard days are going to end.  Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not in a week.  But someday... And someday is a day worth holding on for.

Post Grad!

Sometimes, I think it's super crazy that I'm officially a college graduate...  School started yesterday for BYU-I, and I almost feel like I should be there.  It's crazy i'm not, and it's even crazier that I get to have a summer again!  I get to wear capri's and flip-flops, I need to get a summer job, I'll be able to stay out an play at night... I know those seem like small things, but when you go without them for 2 years, it's kinda a big deal. ;)

Here's what I've been up to the past few weeks:

We were heading out the door to Bannon's first baseball game.

Go Twins!  I don't mean to brag, but you're looking at the #1 pick out of all the boys playing this year... Every single team wanted him.  He's a baseball all-star!

This is the 2nd of 3 Easter Egg hunts we took Bannon to.  I'm the cheerleader. ;)

Traditional dying of the Easter Eggs.

Easter Sunday!

I went hiking with a good friend at Dry Creek up above Alpine.  We went through snow, mud, dirt... haha It was fun to go hiking in April. 

Middle of nowhere?  Yeah... kinda.  

You can kinda see the waterfall.  We're going back later this summer when there isn't still snow.  I'll be sure to post some better pictures. :)

I guess it's time I can share a secret i've been keeping for the past few months.  I have accepted a long-term subbing position at Kearns High School.  The current teacher is going to have a baby, so once I start, i'll be there through the end of the year.  I'm going to be teaching Foods 1, Foods 2, and Food Service, which is like Foods 3.  The past few days, I have gone to observe the students, look over lesson plans, and get a feel for how things go.  I'm excited for this opportunity!  I know going into this, all the students are thinking, "Oh, we'll totally walk all over her.  She's just a sub." HA!  Little do they know, I just got done student teaching, and learned a lot.  So I plan on doing much better than a typical sub would.  I'll be sure to update how things go.  I think that's about it for now.  Bannon was sick today, so we had a sick day.  We stayed in our pajama's all day, and just watched some movies.  It was a fun sibling bonding day. :)  

Well, time to go watch the rest of Revenge!  Catch ya later!

My Return!

I know, I know... It's been a REALLY long time since I have posted anything.  But, being a teacher is an awful lot of work, and I didn't have hardly any free time...  Before I go any father, I must share my good news!  I'm officially done with student teaching!!!! I passed with flying colors, and now I get to enter into the grown up world.  Yeah... that's a little scary.  During my student teaching experience, I had the time of my life.  I know that teaching Family and Consumer Sciences is what I should be doing.  It just fits, and it feels right.  What a wonderful feeling it is to know that I'm in the right profession.  While some student teach and end up thinking, "well this certainly isn't for me", it only validated that teaching IS for me.  Love it!!


I have thousands of stories from student teaching!  However, a lot of them would take waaaaaaay too long to type, so just ask if you want to hear some.  I will say, being hit on by several Sophomore boys was quite the experience.  I'm gonna miss them. ;)


I do have some happy news to share!  I, fortunately enough, will not have to be teaching-less for long.  I have accepted a long term subbing position at Kearns High School starting at the end of the month, and it will go until the end of the school year.  I'm excited for the opportunity, and know it's going to bring a lot of stress.  But, I'm ready for it!  It's only day 2 since I've finished student teaching, and I already miss it.  I miss the students, I miss teaching, and sadly enough, I miss making lesson plans.  It'll be good to get into the schools again!  


But now, the hunt for a teaching job for the fall is on... And it's scary.  It's scary to grow up!!  Sometimes I secretly think I want to go back to school and get another degree.  Only because I want to be lazy and not search for a job... We'll see what happens.  Fingers crossed that something will work out!


I can't believe it's already April.  That means football season is that much closer to starting. ;)  I went to a Utah baseball game with my mom and Bannon last Friday.  That was.... interesting.  The final score was UCLA 15 Utah 0... Typical.  Haha I only say that because I'm a BYU fan.  But hey, at least I went and supported the Utes in something, right?


I feel like I have so much to say, but yet not much to say at the same time.  I could start telling all sorts of stories, but it's getting late, and I should probably get some sleep.  I need to take my car in for an oil change in the morning... 


I'll be sure to post again soon now that I have some free time.  I'm gonna live up the next month while I have some free time.  Expect to hear some awesome stories of fun adventures soon.  :)